To me December is the month of love and warmth, beauty and self reflecting. I am the kind of person that loves simplicity, whether in conversation or in the way of living, so I like to surround myself with simple yet creative minds with whom I can talk about anything and everything. December, the coldest yet warmest month of the year. December means long and dark cold nights on the outside yet warm and cozy on the inside. It's the most misjudged and misunderstood month of the year. It's cold and gloomy and it certainly gives away a sad vibe, but it's a month where you can just sit in your room and reflect about how another year has passed and how another one is about to come. Whenever December comes I feel the urge to cry my heart out and purify it to welcome a new year. Since I was a child, I always believed that I'll become a doctor since the only thing that makes me happy is helping others and saving lives. Sadly that dream has somehow been marginalised by other irrelevant thoughts that others planted in my mind and that I didn't have the courage to refuse. We simply can't all have our Grey's anatomy fantasy come true; can we? On my 18th birthday I met a person that turned out to be the decision maker of my entire life. Because of that person, I took the risk and chose a field that now I regret more than anything else in my life.
All these thoughts come to my mind on every December's lonely night. How much I respect that person will never change though I'm having a hard time because of him-since it was my choice and not his- but I had to blame someone else besides myself to feel better. He's a soul I don't regret knowing. I hate going through the IFS but; if I had the chance to turn back time I'd confess, I'd be more honest and maybe I'd choose a different path.
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